JOY: A feeling of great pleasure of happiness ~
A feeling that safe to say, I have not experienced much of so far this year. Now if we’re talking defeat, depression, anxiety, sadness, and uncertainty.. I felt all of those far too often. When you’re going through a tough time or unexpected obstacle such as infertility it can drain every bit of life out of you.
You experience a never ending cycle of hope and excitement followed by defeat and depression every single month. The medications are brutal, the side effects can be terrifying; physically, mentally, and emotionally you are just drained. When it fails time and time again you forget what it feels like to experience happiness and contentment. ~
No I’m not saying all of this out of pity or to be dramatic, but out of awareness that there are so many other who go through things in life, that experience these emotions without a place to escape. They hide in the dark because they feel alone, secluded, and insufficient.
For the longest time I kept our struggles and story to ourself because I felt as though I did not have a place to express them. Who was I to complain when there were people going through far ”worse.” People who had been trying for longer, people who had gone through more extensive treatments, more surgeries, IVF cycles; more failures etc. ~
Truth is no matter what your obstacles are or how long you’ve been struggling your feelings are relevant. Nobody knows how long you have been struggling, or how badly you want it. NOONE has a right to judge you for the actions and decisions you make to find a solution. Our stories are uniquely written and we all deserve the support to make it through. The encouragement to find JOY in the journey and motivation to keep striving for that end goal. ~
Although it’s never easy, finding JOY in the journey has allowed me to experience MORE; more friendships, positivity, deeper faith, and honest healing. There is a reason for each season, and by finding the joy it will lead to greater fulfillment in the end. For God is always preparing us for something greater.💕
Did you experience joy today? #infertilityuncovered #niaw