🚨AWARNESS🚨••• Long post alert! Took some time away. Been doing some documentary/personal projects. This is a series I shot for @endless43: #repost
••• So...long and transparent post...for my birthday I wanted to do something that took me COMPLETELY out of my comfort zone and allowed me to be open with mental illness. Anxiety/Depression can be difficult to discuss especially when it’s not the same for everyone. I wanted to do something that helps describe how mine makes me feel through pictures. Most of the time you all know me to be happy, laughing, making others laugh, and giving off good energy. Then there are days where it takes ALL of my energy to get out of the bed. Sometimes I can’t and I try my best to push through it. Hopefully the description of each of these pics helps ☺️ 1. (Corner pic)...I can be in a room full of people and still feel alone. Most of the time I’m good, but a few times u might notice I’m on my phone the whole time. This is just to make it seem like I’m doing something other than being awkward and anxious.
2. (hush pic)...sometimes it’s difficult for me to express why I’m feeling a certain way. You can ask what’s wrong and it can take me a minute to come up with an answer and there’s a good chance I don’t have one. Sometimes I LITERALLY have no idea why I’m feeling down. Just be patient with me and I’ll try my best to tell u.
3. (Hands on my head and face)...so many thoughts run through my head at once when I start to feel anxious (hands on t head) and I feel like everyone is staring at me (Hands over my face) and I don’t want to be seen.
4. (Hands)...this is my fav pic. For me, this represents the negative thoughts, the depressive thoughts, and bad thoughts I have in my head when my anxiety and depression set in. These are the times I really have to pray about it, reach out to a friend, or just calm myself down by saying “it’s going to be okay” over and over again.
My anxiety can be triggered by certain words or events and sometimes it hits at random times. Usually I’m this happy person that u all know and love ❤️☺️ and I’m doing my best to always be that way.
S/O to @shotsbymike for capturing exactly what I wanted.