People like to talk about how you only see what people want you to see on social media. We’re in a generation where we take a ton of photos to get the perfect one to share online with our friends and followers, but what about behind the scenes and what’s happening there? .
When I’m ill (either struggling physically or mentally) I either go over the top on social media trying to make it look like I’m okay, or I go pretty much silent.) .
This past few days I’ve been pretty quiet because I’m really not well. I have a bad chest infection which has been treated with two lots of steroids and one lot of antibiotics so far and is still getting worse. I have some kind of migraine on top of this plus something wrong with the muscles causing pain on my right hand side all the way from my right cheek down my side, into my hip and down my leg. I’ve been pretty much in bed doing nothing other than the essentials such as sorting out Jasper and stuff for a few days and even sitting in a chair is leaving me breathless. I have to give the antibiotics another day before I go back to the doctors and currently I feel really terrible. I keep trying to do a little bit of uni work to stop myself dropping really far behind but my head hurts so bad it’s getting harder. I’m praying that I’ll start feeling better soon. .
Why am I going on about all this on social media? Everyone know knows I’m ill all the time and is no doubt sick of hearing me moaning about it. Well sometimes, it’s better to know what is going on behind the scenes than not realise what people are going through. I don’t mean in regards of myself, but in regards of everyone who we talk to on a daily basis. Check on the people who have gone quiet, or who are trying too hard to convince everyone they’re okay. .
Today I’m sat here with curly, unbrushed hair, with my body and face swollen from the meds and feeling horrific. This is the reality behind the happy or rambling social media posts which I often put out. Hopefully it will speak to at least someone, to let people know it’s okay not to be okay all the time. .
#exhausted #alwaysill #needfixing
P.S. I’ve no idea if any of this makes sense!